one day when i'm going to a supermarket to buy my shampoo. err.. it was kinda like a hypermarket coz it's bigger than a normal supermarket i suppose. alrite.. it happened when i reach the shampoo section. there was hell lot of shampoo with thousands of brands there.. i can't made up my mind what brand of shampoo i should buy. i just stand there and started to think. should i try the new ones and the branded ones? or i should just grab the one i've been using for years and shoot off? in the end.. i choose the shampoo that i've been using for years. -end-
it's not about the brand but quality that it counts. this can be apply to life as well. don't judge a people by their popularity but look inside for their quality and also their potential. they might do something great. same goes to the one who's reading my blog. don't you agree?
"what will happen if one day the robots rule the world? we human will become slaves, human will not need other human as their soul mates, there's no more need of human since robot can do almost anything and everything. even nowadays we depends so much on robots and machines. yes it's true that with the existence of robots make human life easier and more convenient. but we tend to become more and more lazy day by day."
hahahaha.. what a thinking i got. this is totally out of my cleverness and my IQ level. :p how or why do i think like that? oh well.. it's just because i got an assignment on talking with robots in instant messenger. not human! -_____-" and i think in 50 years time we can see a perfect human-like robot walking on the street and acting like a human. oh my.. i wonder if i got the chance to see that.. :X
ok
this post is made due to lots of demand and complaints from my blog's die hard fan.
wakakaka.
semester 2 of my campus life is over. no more stressful assignments. no more stupid exams and test. no more boring lectures. wakakaka. a few days more will be the beginning of new semester for me and also will be the final semester for my course i'm having now. wakakaka. yes it's a new beginning for me everytime i enter a new semester. and every new beginning must have new hope and new wishes. hahahahahaha.
:+: my wishlist :+:
1. get a scholarship for my degree course.
2. maintain and improve my CGPA.
3. have my own car in campus.
4. new hairstyle. (yeah i'm into it. just need to grow a bit longer)
5. lose weight?
:+: my hopes :+:
1. the subjects won't be hard for this semester.
2. no more assignments (i hate it very much!)
3. less quizzes and exams.
4. fuck all those useless scumbags away. (wakakaka!)
and this is the post for today. may the force be with me. wakaka.
*cough cough* ehem.. speaking of love. it's a never ending topic. for me..i think love is a responsibility and trusting each other. how does love afect my life? hmm.. let me think. to be honest i can't live without love, because for me love is a ray of light. as i am a leo. hahahahahaha. it's kinda unbelievable but i've to accept the truth. i can't live without love. love play a big role in my life. i've had a few b.g.r before but i didn't appreciate until i've really lost it. sure lah.. during that time i was a little brat who enjoyed playing and fooling around. hahaha. the day without love for me is like the day without the sun and the night without the moon. it's like i've lost something very important. if i got a chance to find new love now. i will appreciate it and will take it seriously. hmm.. not forget to love her as much as she loves me. hehehehehehehe. never ever underestimate the power of love because it brings a lot of meaning in your life. :)
"To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow; a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing."
--From Macbeth (V, v, 19)
Macbeth is on the castle walls, under siege by his enemies. A cry is heard from within the castle, and Macbeth learns that his wife has killed herself. There was a time when such a message would have chilled his heart, but at this point he is surprisingly stoic and accepting, resigned to the barren futility of life. He goes on to give one of the most famous Shakespearean speeches that begins with "Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow," and continues "creeps in this petty pace from day to day to the last syllable of recorded time, and all our yesterdays have lighted fools the way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more." Macbeth has found his own "way to dusty death" through greed and superstition, and will soon pay the ultimate price.
i just enjoy reading this quote again and again. it does have a great impact on me..
a few weeks after my last post and i'm back. life's just too miserable for me. it's like i have never had this type of life before i guess.. too much assignments that have to rush due to the closing date and test and test and test.. i'm having social problems with a few of my coursemates and my pc is giving me a lot of trouble.. haaaaaaaaaaaaiiiii *long sigh* i guess this is what university life all about. ok there's one day i was washing my clothes and i saw a quote on my t-shirt. "not going along with the crowd can hep you stand out in the crowd". and i start thinking how can i stand out in the crowd when I'm going along in the crowd? is that something to do with the friends i'm mixing around or it's just that i'm having problem with myself? should i change the rest of them or i'm the one should change? i don't think i'm having problem with my attitude or something. it's just that i hate my life. sometimes i just wonder how good if i'm just a baby. nothing to be worried and no need to be responsible for anything. but as time goes by i couldn't have that thinking anymore. "the older you are the bigger your responsibilities" as i'm the eldest one in the family. therefore i shouldn't show or let them know my worries and problems. and there goes.....
13th Feb 2007, tuesday.
8a.m.
woke up early in the morning. feel very upset becoz of the public speaking. nah! who cares bout it anyway? it's already over. continue my day as usual. attend lectures, go back home sleep, eat, bla bla bla.. took a nap in the afternoon and suddenly got awake ard 5pm. weather: cloudy and it was going to rain. super smart me don't care bout the weather and went out for no reason. at last end up soaking wet. oh yeah~ the fun part starts here. after i took my bath. i was thinking,"hey! since it's raining heavily~ how good if i can hav a cup of nescafe and enjoy it outside the balcony. yesh yesh! nescafe~ super nice and it was heaven~ :) that nite got not so much homework to do.. just did some revision and play some games. plan to sleep early.
12a.m.
lights off. went to bed. keep rolling here and there. twist and turn. ALAMAK! i couldn't sleep! hai lat liao! nescafe effect so strong that keep my eyes open all d nite. wah wah wah! tried so many ways to sleep.. count sheep, read books, bla bla bla.. and the more i do, the more energetic i'm.. somehow i feel horny~ think and imagine bout girls.. all the sexy and cute girls.. analyze them one by one. hahaha! at last i bang my head to the wall.. HARD! oh yeah~ dizzy~ good! there goes my day.. sleep for 3 hours till the next morning. :|
MORALE OF THIS STORY IS: START ONLY YOUR DAY WITH NESCAFE, NOT OTHER THAN THAT..!
7th February 2007, Wednesday
ok.. how shld i start this.. ok.. today there's a computer lab class for me.. what we did was just revising for the coming test.. what the lecturer gave us was some simple question that i did before in the previous class.. somehow.. when i start to do the question.. i can't.. i don't understand it at all.. how can i do it so easily last time and now it was so hard.. that time.. i start to ask myself questions, "max! what's wrong with you? why are you so weak? you're useless. just like a piece of trash. how can you lead others when you're so weak and useless?!" muahahahahaha! i stare at the monitor and try to figure out the solution.. somehow i fail. what a dissapointment..
there's one night.. i was lying down on my bed.. staring at the ceiling and i start to ask myself.. "max what would u be in 10 years time or maybe 5 years time? max where would u be in 10 years time or maybe 5 years time?" that questions keep running in my head till the next morning.. hahahahaha.. silly silly.. somehow i couldn't answer that silly questions that i asked myself.. oh well.. now i already have the answer.
in 5 years time
i would be..
*finishing my degree studies.. (Graphics and Multimedia)
*further my studies to overseas.. (might be New Zealand or Australia)
*become more independent than i am now..
*having a steady relationship with my dream girl.. (i guess.. hahaha..)
in 10 years time
i would be..
*having a steady job with a steady income
*getting married..
*own a house..(most preferable a bungalow with a big big garden and swimming pool outside)
*own a car..(honda will do..y? i love honda~)
*taking care of my parents.. (it's a MUST)
and that's it.. i'm still thinking what i will be in future.. and i'm not satisfied with what i had written here. i want better or the best of me. hehe..
oh yeah!! harlow everybody~ after all the rustle and hustle finally i'm back to scribble on my blog le~ campus life is very tough as i thought.. and it's kinda bored.. haha.. i'm crrently doing my semester 2 foundtion in information technology.. how will this sem be for me? ok.. my goals for this very very special sem2.. i want to score my CGPA <3.30, i want to learn roller skating, i want to design my very own web page(which i'm currently working on it rite now.. -.-'') and most of all..I WANT A GIRLFRIEND. heeee~ i'm bored here.. how good if there's someone there to care for me and i would care for her too.. haha.. maybe this sonds silly but still i will try my best! yesh! that's all for today.. :)
i was reading the bible and found out this story is very meaningful. and i would like to share it with u all who browse my page. :)
"listen! a farmer went out to sow his seed. as he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and eat it up. some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. it sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. but when the sun came up, the plant will scorched, and they withered because they had no root. other seed fell among thorns, wich grew up and choke the plants, so that they did not bear grain. still other sed fell on good soil. it came up, grew and produce a crop, multypling thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times."
then , jesus said, " he who has ears to hear, let him hear."
when he was alone, the Twelve and the others around him asked him about the parables. he told them, "the secret of the kingdom of god has been given to you but.to those on the outside everything is said in parables so that, "they may ever seeingbut never perceiving, and ever hearing but never understanding; otherwise they might turn and be forgiven!"
then jesus said to them, "don't you understand this parable? how then will you understand any parable? the farmer sows the word. some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. as soon as they hear it satan comes and takes away the word that was sown n them. others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy. but since they have no root, they last only a short time. when trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quicky fall away. still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of weath and desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. other, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop - thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times what was sown."
from my point of view. people are like the good seeds that the farmer sow. and how can it grow that's depend on where they were scattered. we are the good seeds. therefore we must be the one that sown on good soil. i hope you all understand what i mean cause' i'm blank of words liao. hehe.. :)
i'm currently bz on vacation. after that i'l be bz with my campus stuff due to starting of sem2. haiz..
oh well.. this script is done under 1/2 an hour time. if there's any spelling error please don't blame me hor.
horoscope: cancer woman
ok.. there goes..
when she is in love, she will act both ways. first, shy and polite trembling to be near you. second, attach to you like a glue and trying to be with you all the tme . she will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you. it is O.K. if you like her too, but if it is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable. she hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. if she knows she will be very hurt. in nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other zodiac. she is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you betther be the one who start first. she will not accept her true feeling, so if you like her you better tell her first.
she is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. other people may think of her as ''over-acting'', or ''over-reacting''. when she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. she loves money, and thinks of having ''money'' as ''happy''; not as ''god''. she will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help you make money, save money. she is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.
she is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. cancer woman also influenced by the ''moon'', so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman. she has a constant fear for many things. she fear of not being smart enough, not pretty enough. even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. assuring her of her look would help, because she cqan change mood 4 times a day. she is not a stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks. she sees that everything are useful to her, she will find a way to re-use it again some day. she is not a jealous type, but possessive.
the best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit. don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it. she is not a weak type even she looks like one. example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out. once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally. she is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the way. if she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is your mother in law, you are in pain. not to worry, this type of mother in law will not let her own daughter being an ''old mate''. she could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you. if you argue with her and dissapear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long o. k. this kind of testing is risky, try not to do it. the cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are ''work'' and ''love''. she can be live in a dusty house, but she cannot live in that same house with no love.
o.O'' *surprised* i'm predicting your future. haha! :p
hello all today i'll be talking bout horoscope : aquarius woman. so to those guys who married, wanted, admired, or already have a girlfriend with this zodiac. please read through it.
okie...
if you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. she is a very busy person with her own matters similiar to a guy in this zodiac. she is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, very strong person indeed. not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she cannot find such person, so what. because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. she is a leader, a real confident type. she likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. if she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked. she likes cool guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a chance to show him his own confident. she like to guess her man's reaction but at the same time she likes to has many man wanting her. she is a daring type who could juz do thing differently fromother people in her same society. she dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her.
even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. if she breaks up with someone, she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony. not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has ''faith'' in the word ''love''. she has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. shecould be slightly jealous but she hate jealous guy. she loves ''freedom'' so before and after marriage, her freedom has to be the same. she likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow. she likes to be the one who is ''right'', so if you argue with her, let her win if it is not a big deal for youin that subject. she is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. her love and relationship are always real, so if she say ''it's over'' be prepare to leave. she is not testing you
she is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. if she is with youwhen you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean ''small loan''. do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. when she is sad, be understanding. when she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that. you will not get bore with this type of girl. someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. she is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave.
she has many type of jobs because she beliefswhat man can do, i can do. if you want her to work for you, forget it. when she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. prepare to live and love wqith a ''working woman'' then you will be OK. if she is mad, find a shelter for the ''hurricane'' is here! her bad temper will last very shortly though. she is not a revenge type and will not think of ''pay back'' time. most people might think of her as ''one of a guy'', but in fact she is a 100% woman. she is easily hurt, so be nice with her. if she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bored you. understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.
as for other zodiac.. i'll post it next time when i've free time. :)
maple story. the currently on9 game i'm playing now. haha.. got new patch wif new towns and quests le.. but dunno why server very lag.. maybe becoz not stable yet bah. o.O
haha.. after so long this blog is dead finally it's back to live le.. thx to me myself reviving it back o.O'' holidays start liao.. it's the end for the 1st sem in my Uni. haiz.. come to think of it.. so many things happen and time pass really fast. wat shld i do on my holiday. i also dunnu le... sit at home face the pc oni loh.( as usual) haha!
this song is the best describing my feelings rite now....
TEARS
Romaji Lyrics
doko ni yukeba ii
anata to hanarete
ima wa sugisatta
toki ni toikakete
naga sugita yoru ni
tabidachi o yume mita
ikoku no sora mitsumete
kodoku o dakishimeta
nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no
toiki o kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE
SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE
TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi o
aoi bara ni kaete
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.
English Translation
"Wherever we go is okay,"
You said
Now what may have been
Has been stopped by time
On that night that was too long
I had a dream where you left me
Staring at a foreign sky
I hugged my lonliness
My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
At the end
I feel your breath
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
LONELINESS... YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY... YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE
SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE
TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
This feeling at the end
Makes my blue rose change*
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
My fallen tears are piled on the winds of time again
At the end I can feel your breath
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.
love,
max
Trust
Do I trust you enoughto let you know..
How I feel about you and where I stand..
That I have feelings for you deep inside..
And at times I feel like holding your hand..
Do you trust me enough to let me know..
Your little misdeeds and overwhelming fears..
The secrets you hide and all your worries..
Your constant longing to feel me near..
Do we trust each other enough to let each other know..
That we'll always be there for each other..
Hand-in-hand conquering every stumble..
Convincing ourselves that we'll always be together..
Do you trust yourself enough to let yourself know..
How you feel deep inside about each insecurity..
The depth of emotions you feel for the one you love..
And that you'll never take advantage of me..
Do I trust myself to let me know..
That what we have is slowly slipping away..
The truth that you're feeding me lies..
And that what we have is vanishing each day..
-max-
Relationships - of all kinds - are like sand in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled.A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively and the relationship slips away and is lost. *^^*
Name Max
Age i forgot.. duhh..
Star sign Leo
bday 8th Aug
[[ The Wishlist ]]
New wand!
Lockart's new spell book
Murder the potions master
New broom
Get into the school's qudditch team
[[ Don't talk crap, it's fucking rude (Duh!)]]
one day when i'm going to a supermarket to buy my shampoo. err.. it was kinda like a hypermarket coz it's bigger than a normal supermarket i suppose. alrite.. it happened when i reach the shampoo section. there was hell lot of shampoo with thousands of brands there.. i can't made up my mind what brand of shampoo i should buy. i just stand there and started to think. should i try the new ones and the branded ones? or i should just grab the one i've been using for years and shoot off? in the end.. i choose the shampoo that i've been using for years. -end-
it's not about the brand but quality that it counts. this can be apply to life as well. don't judge a people by their popularity but look inside for their quality and also their potential. they might do something great. same goes to the one who's reading my blog. don't you agree?
"what will happen if one day the robots rule the world? we human will become slaves, human will not need other human as their soul mates, there's no more need of human since robot can do almost anything and everything. even nowadays we depends so much on robots and machines. yes it's true that with the existence of robots make human life easier and more convenient. but we tend to become more and more lazy day by day."
hahahaha.. what a thinking i got. this is totally out of my cleverness and my IQ level. :p how or why do i think like that? oh well.. it's just because i got an assignment on talking with robots in instant messenger. not human! -_____-" and i think in 50 years time we can see a perfect human-like robot walking on the street and acting like a human. oh my.. i wonder if i got the chance to see that.. :X
ok
this post is made due to lots of demand and complaints from my blog's die hard fan.
wakakaka.
semester 2 of my campus life is over. no more stressful assignments. no more stupid exams and test. no more boring lectures. wakakaka. a few days more will be the beginning of new semester for me and also will be the final semester for my course i'm having now. wakakaka. yes it's a new beginning for me everytime i enter a new semester. and every new beginning must have new hope and new wishes. hahahahahaha.
:+: my wishlist :+:
1. get a scholarship for my degree course.
2. maintain and improve my CGPA.
3. have my own car in campus.
4. new hairstyle. (yeah i'm into it. just need to grow a bit longer)
5. lose weight?
:+: my hopes :+:
1. the subjects won't be hard for this semester.
2. no more assignments (i hate it very much!)
3. less quizzes and exams.
4. fuck all those useless scumbags away. (wakakaka!)
and this is the post for today. may the force be with me. wakaka.
*cough cough* ehem.. speaking of love. it's a never ending topic. for me..i think love is a responsibility and trusting each other. how does love afect my life? hmm.. let me think. to be honest i can't live without love, because for me love is a ray of light. as i am a leo. hahahahahaha. it's kinda unbelievable but i've to accept the truth. i can't live without love. love play a big role in my life. i've had a few b.g.r before but i didn't appreciate until i've really lost it. sure lah.. during that time i was a little brat who enjoyed playing and fooling around. hahaha. the day without love for me is like the day without the sun and the night without the moon. it's like i've lost something very important. if i got a chance to find new love now. i will appreciate it and will take it seriously. hmm.. not forget to love her as much as she loves me. hehehehehehehe. never ever underestimate the power of love because it brings a lot of meaning in your life. :)
"To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow; a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing."
--From Macbeth (V, v, 19)
Macbeth is on the castle walls, under siege by his enemies. A cry is heard from within the castle, and Macbeth learns that his wife has killed herself. There was a time when such a message would have chilled his heart, but at this point he is surprisingly stoic and accepting, resigned to the barren futility of life. He goes on to give one of the most famous Shakespearean speeches that begins with "Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow," and continues "creeps in this petty pace from day to day to the last syllable of recorded time, and all our yesterdays have lighted fools the way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more." Macbeth has found his own "way to dusty death" through greed and superstition, and will soon pay the ultimate price.
i just enjoy reading this quote again and again. it does have a great impact on me..
a few weeks after my last post and i'm back. life's just too miserable for me. it's like i have never had this type of life before i guess.. too much assignments that have to rush due to the closing date and test and test and test.. i'm having social problems with a few of my coursemates and my pc is giving me a lot of trouble.. haaaaaaaaaaaaiiiii *long sigh* i guess this is what university life all about. ok there's one day i was washing my clothes and i saw a quote on my t-shirt. "not going along with the crowd can hep you stand out in the crowd". and i start thinking how can i stand out in the crowd when I'm going along in the crowd? is that something to do with the friends i'm mixing around or it's just that i'm having problem with myself? should i change the rest of them or i'm the one should change? i don't think i'm having problem with my attitude or something. it's just that i hate my life. sometimes i just wonder how good if i'm just a baby. nothing to be worried and no need to be responsible for anything. but as time goes by i couldn't have that thinking anymore. "the older you are the bigger your responsibilities" as i'm the eldest one in the family. therefore i shouldn't show or let them know my worries and problems. and there goes.....
13th Feb 2007, tuesday.
8a.m.
woke up early in the morning. feel very upset becoz of the public speaking. nah! who cares bout it anyway? it's already over. continue my day as usual. attend lectures, go back home sleep, eat, bla bla bla.. took a nap in the afternoon and suddenly got awake ard 5pm. weather: cloudy and it was going to rain. super smart me don't care bout the weather and went out for no reason. at last end up soaking wet. oh yeah~ the fun part starts here. after i took my bath. i was thinking,"hey! since it's raining heavily~ how good if i can hav a cup of nescafe and enjoy it outside the balcony. yesh yesh! nescafe~ super nice and it was heaven~ :) that nite got not so much homework to do.. just did some revision and play some games. plan to sleep early.
12a.m.
lights off. went to bed. keep rolling here and there. twist and turn. ALAMAK! i couldn't sleep! hai lat liao! nescafe effect so strong that keep my eyes open all d nite. wah wah wah! tried so many ways to sleep.. count sheep, read books, bla bla bla.. and the more i do, the more energetic i'm.. somehow i feel horny~ think and imagine bout girls.. all the sexy and cute girls.. analyze them one by one. hahaha! at last i bang my head to the wall.. HARD! oh yeah~ dizzy~ good! there goes my day.. sleep for 3 hours till the next morning. :|
MORALE OF THIS STORY IS: START ONLY YOUR DAY WITH NESCAFE, NOT OTHER THAN THAT..!
7th February 2007, Wednesday
ok.. how shld i start this.. ok.. today there's a computer lab class for me.. what we did was just revising for the coming test.. what the lecturer gave us was some simple question that i did before in the previous class.. somehow.. when i start to do the question.. i can't.. i don't understand it at all.. how can i do it so easily last time and now it was so hard.. that time.. i start to ask myself questions, "max! what's wrong with you? why are you so weak? you're useless. just like a piece of trash. how can you lead others when you're so weak and useless?!" muahahahahaha! i stare at the monitor and try to figure out the solution.. somehow i fail. what a dissapointment..
there's one night.. i was lying down on my bed.. staring at the ceiling and i start to ask myself.. "max what would u be in 10 years time or maybe 5 years time? max where would u be in 10 years time or maybe 5 years time?" that questions keep running in my head till the next morning.. hahahahaha.. silly silly.. somehow i couldn't answer that silly questions that i asked myself.. oh well.. now i already have the answer.
in 5 years time
i would be..
*finishing my degree studies.. (Graphics and Multimedia)
*further my studies to overseas.. (might be New Zealand or Australia)
*become more independent than i am now..
*having a steady relationship with my dream girl.. (i guess.. hahaha..)
in 10 years time
i would be..
*having a steady job with a steady income
*getting married..
*own a house..(most preferable a bungalow with a big big garden and swimming pool outside)
*own a car..(honda will do..y? i love honda~)
*taking care of my parents.. (it's a MUST)
and that's it.. i'm still thinking what i will be in future.. and i'm not satisfied with what i had written here. i want better or the best of me. hehe..
oh yeah!! harlow everybody~ after all the rustle and hustle finally i'm back to scribble on my blog le~ campus life is very tough as i thought.. and it's kinda bored.. haha.. i'm crrently doing my semester 2 foundtion in information technology.. how will this sem be for me? ok.. my goals for this very very special sem2.. i want to score my CGPA <3.30, i want to learn roller skating, i want to design my very own web page(which i'm currently working on it rite now.. -.-'') and most of all..I WANT A GIRLFRIEND. heeee~ i'm bored here.. how good if there's someone there to care for me and i would care for her too.. haha.. maybe this sonds silly but still i will try my best! yesh! that's all for today.. :)
i was reading the bible and found out this story is very meaningful. and i would like to share it with u all who browse my page. :)
"listen! a farmer went out to sow his seed. as he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and eat it up. some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. it sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. but when the sun came up, the plant will scorched, and they withered because they had no root. other seed fell among thorns, wich grew up and choke the plants, so that they did not bear grain. still other sed fell on good soil. it came up, grew and produce a crop, multypling thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times."
then , jesus said, " he who has ears to hear, let him hear."
when he was alone, the Twelve and the others around him asked him about the parables. he told them, "the secret of the kingdom of god has been given to you but.to those on the outside everything is said in parables so that, "they may ever seeingbut never perceiving, and ever hearing but never understanding; otherwise they might turn and be forgiven!"
then jesus said to them, "don't you understand this parable? how then will you understand any parable? the farmer sows the word. some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. as soon as they hear it satan comes and takes away the word that was sown n them. others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy. but since they have no root, they last only a short time. when trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quicky fall away. still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of weath and desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. other, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop - thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times what was sown."
from my point of view. people are like the good seeds that the farmer sow. and how can it grow that's depend on where they were scattered. we are the good seeds. therefore we must be the one that sown on good soil. i hope you all understand what i mean cause' i'm blank of words liao. hehe.. :)
i'm currently bz on vacation. after that i'l be bz with my campus stuff due to starting of sem2. haiz..
oh well.. this script is done under 1/2 an hour time. if there's any spelling error please don't blame me hor.
horoscope: cancer woman
ok.. there goes..
when she is in love, she will act both ways. first, shy and polite trembling to be near you. second, attach to you like a glue and trying to be with you all the tme . she will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you. it is O.K. if you like her too, but if it is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable. she hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. if she knows she will be very hurt. in nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other zodiac. she is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you betther be the one who start first. she will not accept her true feeling, so if you like her you better tell her first.
she is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. other people may think of her as ''over-acting'', or ''over-reacting''. when she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. she loves money, and thinks of having ''money'' as ''happy''; not as ''god''. she will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help you make money, save money. she is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.
she is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. cancer woman also influenced by the ''moon'', so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman. she has a constant fear for many things. she fear of not being smart enough, not pretty enough. even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. assuring her of her look would help, because she cqan change mood 4 times a day. she is not a stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks. she sees that everything are useful to her, she will find a way to re-use it again some day. she is not a jealous type, but possessive.
the best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit. don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it. she is not a weak type even she looks like one. example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out. once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally. she is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the way. if she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is your mother in law, you are in pain. not to worry, this type of mother in law will not let her own daughter being an ''old mate''. she could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you. if you argue with her and dissapear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long o. k. this kind of testing is risky, try not to do it. the cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are ''work'' and ''love''. she can be live in a dusty house, but she cannot live in that same house with no love.
o.O'' *surprised* i'm predicting your future. haha! :p
hello all today i'll be talking bout horoscope : aquarius woman. so to those guys who married, wanted, admired, or already have a girlfriend with this zodiac. please read through it.
okie...
if you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. she is a very busy person with her own matters similiar to a guy in this zodiac. she is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, very strong person indeed. not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she cannot find such person, so what. because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. she is a leader, a real confident type. she likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. if she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked. she likes cool guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a chance to show him his own confident. she like to guess her man's reaction but at the same time she likes to has many man wanting her. she is a daring type who could juz do thing differently fromother people in her same society. she dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her.
even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. if she breaks up with someone, she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony. not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has ''faith'' in the word ''love''. she has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. shecould be slightly jealous but she hate jealous guy. she loves ''freedom'' so before and after marriage, her freedom has to be the same. she likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow. she likes to be the one who is ''right'', so if you argue with her, let her win if it is not a big deal for youin that subject. she is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. her love and relationship are always real, so if she say ''it's over'' be prepare to leave. she is not testing you
she is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. if she is with youwhen you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean ''small loan''. do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. when she is sad, be understanding. when she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that. you will not get bore with this type of girl. someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. she is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave.
she has many type of jobs because she beliefswhat man can do, i can do. if you want her to work for you, forget it. when she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. prepare to live and love wqith a ''working woman'' then you will be OK. if she is mad, find a shelter for the ''hurricane'' is here! her bad temper will last very shortly though. she is not a revenge type and will not think of ''pay back'' time. most people might think of her as ''one of a guy'', but in fact she is a 100% woman. she is easily hurt, so be nice with her. if she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bored you. understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.
as for other zodiac.. i'll post it next time when i've free time. :)
maple story. the currently on9 game i'm playing now. haha.. got new patch wif new towns and quests le.. but dunno why server very lag.. maybe becoz not stable yet bah. o.O
haha.. after so long this blog is dead finally it's back to live le.. thx to me myself reviving it back o.O'' holidays start liao.. it's the end for the 1st sem in my Uni. haiz.. come to think of it.. so many things happen and time pass really fast. wat shld i do on my holiday. i also dunnu le... sit at home face the pc oni loh.( as usual) haha!
this song is the best describing my feelings rite now....
TEARS
Romaji Lyrics
doko ni yukeba ii
anata to hanarete
ima wa sugisatta
toki ni toikakete
naga sugita yoru ni
tabidachi o yume mita
ikoku no sora mitsumete
kodoku o dakishimeta
nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no
toiki o kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE
SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE
TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi o
aoi bara ni kaete
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.
English Translation
"Wherever we go is okay,"
You said
Now what may have been
Has been stopped by time
On that night that was too long
I had a dream where you left me
Staring at a foreign sky
I hugged my lonliness
My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
At the end
I feel your breath
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
LONELINESS... YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY... YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE
SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE
TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
This feeling at the end
Makes my blue rose change*
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
My fallen tears are piled on the winds of time again
At the end I can feel your breath
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.
love,
max
Trust
Do I trust you enoughto let you know..
How I feel about you and where I stand..
That I have feelings for you deep inside..
And at times I feel like holding your hand..
Do you trust me enough to let me know..
Your little misdeeds and overwhelming fears..
The secrets you hide and all your worries..
Your constant longing to feel me near..
Do we trust each other enough to let each other know..
That we'll always be there for each other..
Hand-in-hand conquering every stumble..
Convincing ourselves that we'll always be together..
Do you trust yourself enough to let yourself know..
How you feel deep inside about each insecurity..
The depth of emotions you feel for the one you love..
And that you'll never take advantage of me..
Do I trust myself to let me know..
That what we have is slowly slipping away..
The truth that you're feeding me lies..
And that what we have is vanishing each day..
-max-
Relationships - of all kinds - are like sand in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled.A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively and the relationship slips away and is lost. *^^*